RIP

Rest in Peace my beautiful Casey Dog

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Today I had to have my beloved dog Casey put to sleep. He has been unwell for a couple of years now having had a tumor removed and chronic rheumatism, being on pain killers daily. For the last week he has not been eating and usually he drinks lots of water due to the pills, but he has not been drinking, he was losing control of his bladder which I knew the side effects of the pills where that his kidneys would shut down. We have had two extra years than we thought with him and for this we are grateful.

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We bought Casey just after we lost our son Declan, we found him on a farm and there were six of them, Casey was the one that went up to Tye and laid his head on his knee and looked at him, we just had to have him.

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We were going through a horrible time, trying to come to terms with the loss of our son, Casey was a god send, we could each take him out for long walks just to think, he never minded how often I cried into his soft coat and would always try to lick away my tears.

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When we moved to Germany we had to leave him for two years with my parents, but I knew they loved him as much as we did and he would be well looked after. After two years we brought him over to Germany with us.

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He was almost 12 years old and I think he had a good life I would like to think that we made him as happy as he made us.

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We had always planned to be together when he had to go, but unfortunately Tye was away and couldn't make it back and Connor had been invited to a friends to play, which I thought was better for him, Connor gave him a big hug and told him he loved him before he went.

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The task fell to me to take him to the vets, all this afternoon I have just sat and hugged him, and told him how much I loved him and how wonderful he had made my life and how much I owed him, after Declan died and life didn't seem worth living he pulled me through, I owe so much to him.

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Its all well and good telling yourself that you are doing the right thing, when I took him into the vets he took one look and said it was the right decision, it was very quick and painless, and I held him in my arms whilst the vet gave him the injection, and looked into his eyes and said goodbye, I told him how much we all loved him and thanked him for being in our lives, as the liquid went in I just wanted to scream 'stop, please don't do this' but it was what was best for him, that is the second time now that I have had to do this.

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I decided on a cremation for him as I couldn't' bear to have left him when we were posted, we will get a box with his ashes in it and I know it is morbid but seemed the best way, I may even sprinkle his ashes next time I go home on the beach which is one of the places he loved, one of his favourite things was chasing the sea gulls.

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I am not religous but I hope that he is now at peace and chasing the seagulls to his hearts content.

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I love you Casey and you will always be in my heart and a peace of my life, I will never forget you boy.